I wish I was one of those people who had life all figured out.
You know....the ones who know exactly what they want to do with their lives and how their going to get there. :'(
Nothing can stop them, they keep pressing forward no matter how many times they failed. I wish I was like that, well I used to be. I wish I could live this life to the fullest as if I were to die tomorrow. I wish I had no regrets. I wish I had the courage and strength to forget all my troubles and just live my life the way I've always wanted.
Not caring what others thought and living for myself.
Making myself happy.
Taking risks.
I mean doesn't it scare you to know that you only have one life to live and when your times up its up. I know live for today right... but why is it so damn hard? Just to be happy, find people who care, find love, and following your heart or whatever is left of it. I wish life wasn't so hard sometimes.
Live life to the fullest is easier said then done when your struggling to even get out of bed in the morning or to force yourself to put a smile on your face.
I feel like my life is a joke. :'(
I don't know what I'm doing with myself I'm just ******* my life away. Everyday that goes by I see a part of myself die inside because I know deep down inside this is my life. I can't change certain things. Everyday I'm reliving this pain and anger. I see my life crashing down before my eyes and I don't have the strength to pick up the pieces anymore. I had to put my life on hold because of my sick mother. My dreams are dead because of reality. I'm exhausted. I can't fight the tears anymore nor do I want to. I'm so tired it hurts.
I just want a hug. I want someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay.That I'll find my way somehow. Don't give up. I want someone to tell me that one day things will change.
